In Anticipation

There's a feeling of restlessness. I am hungry but can't eat well. Didn't get that much sleep last night.

I'm not sure whether this is caused by a project being finally launched on Sunday (which I won't be able to attend) or my trip to Singapore.

Either way, I like the feeling. At least, I am still capable of feeling this way... very much alive.

I Don't Like Today

I didn't know what to make of this day. It was one of those days that I wasn't doing much work but my mind is so active and my emotions so sensitive.

Just some of my thoughts and feelings today...

• My conversation with mama during breakfast brought me to this thought - If you accept that something not-so-good will happen, is that giving up?

• There's a possibility that my trip to Singapore will not push thru. Some friends tell me to go thru with it by myself. Do I do just that?

• I've become a stranger. Blame distance. But I'm not saying that I'm not starting to worry.

• While waiting for Tine and Toni at the Syke's pantry, 28th floor of RS, a group of guys went inside. One of them asked if I was watching the TV. I mistook this as 'Are you watching this channel?' When I said 'No', he turned the TV off. I ended up reading an English workbook and pretending not listening to their practice of 'Push' (which was a disaster, by the way).

• There are things that should be left unsaid. But there are also those that should be voiced, and should be listened to.

• Too much coffee intake today.

• A midnight stopover at Starbucks Julia Vargas made me witness a car accident. A car tried to make a 'drift'. Not having gone too far (not even 20 meters, i think), it slammed into the wall. The driver and the one in the passenger seat (the nephew of the city's councilor as he claims) are obviously drunk.
  

There. Just some.

Writings on the wall (and everywhere else...)

When I was still in UP, more than once had I found myself laughing or scratching my head whenever I see writings on wherever one can write on. I think I've even memorized some "conversations" so I can tell them to my UP and non-UP friends.

I got this from the email a few days ago. Made me wish I had written down some of those that I memorized and added them to this list.

Here goes... vandalism in UP.

AS Chair
"push button to eject seatmate"
"push button to eject urself"
"push button to kill teacher."
"push button to eject teacher"....
reply: "it's jammed! We're doomed!"

AS 1st floor CR
"if you forget the past, then you porget the purious.."

AS 1st floor CR ulit
"Im a simple gay "
tapos me sumagot "sira! Dapat 'Im simple and gay!' Taga peyups ka ba? duh!"
tapos me sumagot ulit (with matching arrow pa na nakaturo dun sa reply) "sira ka rin! yung simple is used as an adjective tapos yung gay is used asa noun. kaya ok lang yung simple gay nya!"

Bio Chair
"Push cadaver to haunt teacher."

FO Santos
"SA MGA NAGTATAPON NG BASURA DITO... bawal."

Eng'g
Sa Men's CR, facing the urinal:"Hawak ko saking mga kamay ang kinabukasan ng bayan!"
Reply: "the future you are holding is very small."

Math
sa cr sa may math building: "SUMAPI SA NPA!"
may sumagot: "PAANO? "
may sumagot pa: "MAGFILL UP NG COUPON AT IHULOG SA PINAKAMALAPIT NA DROP BOX SA SUKING TINDAHAN!"

sa likod ng isang "teacher's chair" sa 3rd floor:
"BABALA: asawa ni babalu"

3rd floor, sa isang upuan uli. "you'll NEVER find what you're looking for"
May nag-reply: "find x."

NIGS
sa isang upuan: "f*ck nigs!"
may nagreply: "who's nigs?"

Main Lib
Sa isang lamesa ng main lib, filipiniana section: "UP STUDENTS HAS BECOME PATETHIC"
tapos may sumagot..."mali pang grammar at spelling mo, halatang di ka taga UP"

New Site

I just finished copying my posts (not many, if I may say) from my other blog site to this one.

I'm back!

Wrong Car!

At around 8pm today, I got a text from Tine (my bestfriend). "Baba ka na.", it said.

That afternoon, we thought of having coffee before going home. We haven't actually decided where we're gonna have coffee.

Upon receiving her sms, I shut down my office PC, rode the elevator down to the building ground floor. As I was pushing the building exit door, a car was slowing down in front of the building. I was unsure if this was the car that I was supposed to ride in, so I slowed down too. But I heard Tine calling me and thought that her voice was coming from inside the car. So I hurried and opened the car's door. To my surprise (and embarrassment), the door was locked. Realizing that this was not the car, I slowly walked backwards, away from the car, praying that all those who were also waiting would not realize what just happened.

I looked across the street, to the parking lot. I saw Tine - in shock. I ran to her in embarrassment. Geez!

Ano? Saan? Bakit? Thank you.

On some days, I'm doing nothing.
On some days, I'm doing everything.
So what kind of day is today? What do you think?
Di pa ba obvious? =)

Iba na mood ko, no?
Let's just say that God has been so good to me.
Di nya ko pinabayaan.
Sana lang pwede ko na mashare sa lahat.

More than a month na since I left.
I would just like to thank you who...
...listened,
...understood,
...stayed with me,
...prayed for me,
...cried with me,
...encouraged me,
...helped me,
...talked to me,
...comforted me.
Basta, thank you.

For those who did the opposite,
it was painful then.
But I'm teaching myself not to be bitter.
I'm glad to be where I am right now.
Thanks for letting me go; you pushed me here.
Thank you.

Quit and Win

If I quit, does that mean I let them win?
Win this game?

But is this all just a game?
How can I win against those who created the game?

Isn't quitting my only chance to win?
Win and be where I can be my best...